Sometimes the most profound experiences of our lives are things we cannot put into words.

Perhaps the most loving thing we can do for ourselves when faced with one of life’s difficult questions is to just sit quietly to see what God provides as an answer.

These thoughts are from a reflection I read recently, and they touch my heart with something I have been thinking about for a while.

A few weeks ago, I returned to Ketchikan after some weeks caring for a beloved family member with the virus. The experience is too difficult to put into words and the fact that she survived does not take away the affliction I witnessed. This virus abuses a person’s body, mind, and spirit. Witnessing an event carries its own heartache.

I sit with my thoughts to see what answer God will provide. I seek clarity and wisdom from the experience, and sometimes the weight of mortality feels heavy on my shoulders.

I am not a stranger to these difficult moments. Working in healthcare allows chaplains to be present with those facing loss so that they have a listening presence and a safe place to express their emotions.

Most of us are aware of how we cope with difficult times. Some need a quiet walk in the woods, some need their family close by, and some find their relationship with God and prayer the way to make it through.

Listening to the voice of God’s love, grace, and mercy is a great source of comfort and connection.

And so, when I am weak, I pray for strength. When I am afraid, I pray for courage.

Because sometimes the most profound experiences of our lives are things we cannot put into words.

Margie Adams, MA, is the staff chaplain at PeaceHealth Ketchikan Medical Center.


Perspectives is a regular column sponsored and written by members of the Ketchikan Ministerial Association.